Angry Ramblings

Yes school is almost beginning and it seems like our life long (ok highschool long) wish is about to come true. We are finally seniors

Being seniors puts alot of questions into my mind. First of all is friendships. The chance we will see any of our friends after graduation is slim at best . Maybe i am just being pessimistic, but hey someones gotta do it. Even though this is true i would like to let all friends know that i will always remember the way you are before graduation and you guys will live on in my heart as fond memories of a better time.

A problem for me though is determining who is really my friend. Backstabbers, liars, bastards, annoyances... are all categories people could fall into. I know people talk about me, my friends, choices, all for the fun of the conversation, but who doesn't enjoy a little gossip now and then?? I don't care for the most part, even your closest friends see your flaws and sometimes talk about them.

BUT HOW DARE some people claim to be my friend when they say the most awful things behind my back. Like i know i've told some people a secret and they went and blabbed it to other people knowing full well i didn't want that secret to ever leave the phone lines. I've lost interest in a few friends that way. Other people just changed, which is normal for people but a bit dissapointing cuz i was foolish enough to believe maybe we'd be friends till the end of our school days. Hmmm...I never got into a single fight with a friend this year... do you know why?? I try not to attach myself to people to closely because when you do all that happens is you end up hurt and then wonder about every other person you try to get close to. Friends fight, it means they care correct (kinda like marriage) but not fighting shows that person doesn't really care about the other. I've definitely learned my lesson over my highschool expirience.

Ok, now your probaly thinking "stop bitching and buryiung yourself in self pity" or something along those lines. Well i feel that it is good to vent sometimes. I think it's sooo amazing that i haven't lost my temper at school yet (except one time at j club). I donno, friendship is a fickle thing. If i had to say i think i have only 5 good friends in the school. People who i could trust (not with my life tho. Im not crazy lol). It varies year to year tho. Dropping out of IB has been stressfull on me. I mean i did make new friends and stuff but nothing substantial (excep 1 person but they moved away). haha well i guess thats enough bitching for now. Hmm i doubt anybody really reads this stuff to the end anyway. Yea well just incase your wondering this splash of anger was brought to you by Adam, that crazy annoying bro of mine.

Currently Gaming PS2 Drakengard By UBI Soft see related

Yes... sadly this is the end of the school year. It is not sad because i will miss the school work, aggravating teachers, or tons of homework but because the people who gave me the will to survive this harsh environment will not be there these summer months...

yes that was profound. lol. ne way i will get to c people but it will not be the same... i may be able to c some people only once or twice a week unlike the regular 5 i am use to. I wish you all the best summer :) i will keep blogging on this and MySpace and Buzznet so be free to contact me :0

O yea Drakengard 2 wasn't that gewd, i give it a 5 out of 10 unlike the first one that got a 9/10!

Currently Listening Twisted Transistor By Korn Twisted Transistor see related

haha i am glad though that ppl are still using xanga! Its jus sooo much easier to use and keep up with than MySpace... although i am now a MySpace victim myself. I really suck at stylin it up and stuff. O yea and i now blame all the worlds problems on tumors... lol

school is ok, stufs been happenin but nothing too big! the school has blocked almost all proxies!! But here are a list of some for you <3

kingproxy.com, kproxy.com, firefox.com, publicproxyservers.com, hidemyass.com, etc etc

there are a million. O yea that rumor about anonycat not working is not true. EVery once in a while the people of that site work on it which makes it unoperational for about 1-2 months so i would just wait. It might work nxt year if the skool doesn't block it. The only reason they are even blocked this year is because nobody erases their history. THey can look at it but they only do a personal scan once a year and the comp does a quick check the rest of the year.

O yea next year is gonna be tight in security for computers, but i found a way to make an administrators password.There is no guarantee that it will work next year (cuz they may fix the hole) but if ur interested next year i am making 3 accounts with admin access (no not to your grades just other stuf). Its a pain so i am only giving it to 3 peoples, because the computers freeze when more than i person are under those user names. Security measure i guess...

Currently Reading Angels & Demons, Special Illustrated Edition By Dan Brown see related

hey guys

hmm well it seems like i can't get into the spirit of MySpace yet. Maybe it's bcause i stil have so much work to do on it... Anyway i am really tired (more than mentally) and it seems someone wants me dead or something. I have gotten into so many accidents over the course of 2 weeks its not even funny. So I'll call May the month of injury jus like last month was a month for illness. one of my friends actually got run off the road. amazingly hes ok (thnk god). this school though is becoming more n more ghetto. Y can't ppl jus act like ppl instead of an ignorant load of freeloaders who know nothing about anything? The worst part is that these people will one day grow up to vote and work and run this country. I am not sure i can allow that... but i guess no one really has a choice. It seems worse  and worse as the new freshman entered our school. Has anyone else noticed that our school was fine until this years frshman came in?? We were lucky to have like 5 well known fights by the end of the year but this year we have come to like 10. I don't know y i am thinking of these things either. i think too much... maybe i should go emo!!! lol jk i could never do that :) But even so emo kids jus bring more question and contemplation to my head. So i'll think about the weather lol :)

 O yea here something you can skip over if you want to but i thought it should be written down. It was alot to write so i will type the rest later:

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Science vs Religion: An exerpt from Angels and Demons by Dan Brown

     Science has won the war. The wheels have been in motion for a long time. Its victory has been inevitable. Never before has it been more obvious than this moment. Science is the new God. Medicine, electornic communication, space travel, genetic manipulation... these are the mircales which we now tell our children.These are the miracles  we herald as proof that science will bring us answers.The ancient stories of immaculate conception, burning bushes, and parting seas are no longer relevant. God has become obsolete. Science has won the battle. The church concedes.

      But science victory has cost everyone of us. And it has cost us deeply. Science may have alleviated the disease and drudgery  and provided an array of gadgetry of our entertainment and convienience, but it has left us a world without wonder. Our sunsets have been reduced to wavelengths and frequencies. The complexities of the universe has been shredded into mathematical equations . Even our self worth as human beings has been destroyed. Science proclaims that Planet Earth and it's inhabitants are meaningless specks in the grand scheme. A cosmic accident.... Even the technology that promises to unite us, divides us. Each of us is now electronically connected to the globe, yet we feel utterly alone.We are bombarded with violence, division, fracture, and betrayal. Skeptism has become a virtue. Cynicism and demand for proof has become an elightened thought. Is it any wonder that humans now feel more depressed and defeated than they have at any point in human history? Does science hold anything sacred? Science looks for answers by probing our unborn fetuses. Science even presumes to rearrangeur own DNA. It shatters God's world into smaller and smaller pieces in quest of meaning... and all it finds is more questions.

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As i said earlier i will type the rest later and i highlighted some stuf.

ps our sub Mrs Jones in the business dept. is a biotch X 1000000000000000